AKA – August break XXIII
I’ve got photographers-block. It’s like writers-block but, you know, with photos instead of words (although I think I’ve got that as well).
I’m not sure if I’m in this photo funk because I’m feeling a bit useless and unenergized right now or vice-versa. The very thought of sorting out cameras, memory-cards, batteries, film and actually having to use my arms to lift a camera to my face and work out exposures and press that shutter seems like too gargantuan a task. Impossible. So I haven’t bothered. OK, I’m exaggerating a little; I have taken the odd snap, but my mojo is definitely elsewhere right now. I hope it’s having a good time without me!
And so, here we are again at Monday. A new week, a new start, blah di blah. <– see – don’t even have energy to construct a sentence.
I am writing this to give myself a metaphorical (although I think it needs to be more physical) kick up the bum. A kick is exactly what’s called for as I know exactly why I’m in this negative place – they’re reasons that don’t sound like they have much to do with the problem in hand directly but I am beginning to realise are inexorably linked and hold the key to… everything really.
1. Time (too little of it). This is actually a pointless thing to ‘blame’ and shouldn’t be on the list. Time is abstract – it’s what we do in that time is what’s important. I waste a lot of it and I need to be much better organised – I’m going to try picturing my life in 30 minute blocks and see if any blocks can be shuffled, reduced or eliminated. (Eliminated sounds good).
2. Body (too much of it). I am very much aware that I am what I eat and at the moment I am probably about 3/5 sugar, 2/5 fat and 1/5 preservatives, salt plus anything else that’s bad for you that they put into food. I have two modes when it comes to eating – very, very bad and very, very good – and as it’s a LOT easier to eat badly than to eat well, that’s the side that’s winning. So, today I’m ‘back on the wagon’ and I am going to try and put the horror of PE lessons at school behind me and do more exercise – whilst there’s still some light after work to utilise. Yeah, we’ll see about that one.
3. Self-belief (too little of it). That last comment of mine should tell you all you need to know about my self-belief right now! I guess it’s a chicken-and-egg thing though, so hopefully once I start the ball (egg) rolling things will fall into place and I can start believing again.
4. Stuff (too much of it). Yes, this old chestnut! Please, please don’t look back over all the times I’ve said this on this blog. I am still drowning if pointless and unnecessary possessions. It’s taking at least half an hour to find anything now and housework simply involves rearranging piles of stuff and transporting them to different rooms. I’m going to get rid of at least one thing every day – that’s a start, at least!
Thanks for reading this far! It feels good to have written it down – makes it all seem doable and really rather trivial when you consider the problems that so many people in the world are going through right now.
On that note let me mention one of my favourite and most purchased from shops on Etsy; DutchDoor Press. They create the most beautiful letterpress cards and prints and are donating 100% of all todays (23rd August’s) proceeds to UNICEFs relief project in Pakistan.